Here I Am

I am here. I am amazed at how life turns out sometimes. Who would have thought that I would be on the World Wide Web? I am discovering more and more that I am capable of more than I thought. I am also discovering that I am capable of less than I thought. Strange dichotomy. I am discovering that I love to write and see where my thoughts take me. Right now I'm thinking about enchiladas and Spanish rice. It's lunchtime. This makes me think of California where I grew up. I miss the smell of the ocean and the feel of the breeze on my face. I miss going to the beach, not to bake myself, to contemplate life and feel renewed. To be hypnotized by the sound of the waves and screeching sea gulls. To just be. In other places that I have lived, I have found that place also. Someplace to just be. I have not found that here in the middle of nowhere. There is not much by way of nature around here. Perhaps that is one of the reasons my soul seems to struggle in this place. It takes a little more work to see the beauty of God here. But I am learning not to see it in my physical surroundings. I am learning to see that beauty in people, especially in myself. I can be content with myself wherever I am. I am here.